You do not know what trust is. Trust is the complete letting go of what you think matters to you. It is surrender to the Source of all, allowing love in, and not questioning what is to come.
I will show you trust. It is in the flowers that grow up to the heavens and the trees that spread their branches to the sky. It is the love that is in all.
You, who do not know what trust is, think that it is holding on and then letting go, to be held on again. But trust is no more about holding on.
It is the complete surrender to God.